Writing Horny

Writers' Colony

When I tune into my creativity, I get aroused. It’s akin to the attraction of another. It’s as if my ideas secrete pheromones that actually get me turned on — like, straight up horny. I can literally feel the energy pulsate through my body and it amazes me that there is a physical manifestation of how I feel when I’m engaged with my art. Like trying to resist my husband (or any of my lovers before him) I cross my legs, or eat, or do just about anything to not say “fuck it” and masturbate or close the computer, cancel the scheduled writing day and just go have sex.

But it makes sense. Human attraction is the first step in procreation — proCREATION, as in making a baby. Me locking into an idea—staying attracted to it– is the first step in creating a story. For nearly 30 years now I have practiced transferring that electrifying energy identified as sexual energy into my writing so that I can CREATE stories. Think about it: creation is energy, energy is creation… and sexual energy, that lower chakra energy, honey, is powerful. It has blown up the world’s population to nearly 8 billion people— there are so many of us that we’re about to implode because we are using up so much energy that we are literally melting the ice caps that will kill us all. Ha—a real twisted circle of life.

“When I tune into my creativity, I get aroused. It’s akin to the attractions of another. It’s as if my ideas secrete pheromones that actually get me turned on — like, straight-up horny.”

It then makes me wonder if we put too much emphasis on creating people rather than on creating works, born of those inspired ideas that excite us enough to journal, or tell our closest friend, but that all too often we shelve for a more convenient time (like when the kids go off to college). And because sex can be mind-blowingly pleasurable, we spend a lot of our energy chasing that high with our time, money, tears and worry, instead of using that same creative energy to birth those ideas that sprout inside of our hearts. These are just some thoughts, as I sit here and cross my legs…

WORDS: Mara Brock Akil
DATE: 08.11.2021
PHOTO: Mara Brock Akil Archives

1 Comment

  1. Hello Mara, I’m sitting here typing this comment out with a heart full to bursting and tears running down my cheeks because I’ve just binged through all your posts and I can’t tell you how FULL I feel. My God! I’ve cried tears of joy and understanding and this last post just seals it for me. YES! The energy, the sexual energy when one expereinces and connects with one’s gift of creation. Phew!
    Thank you Mara for your beautiful writing and description.

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